People Have Been Left Horrified After Dustin Hoffman's Account Of Losing His Virginity As A Teen Resurfaced Online

This article mentions allegations of sexual assault. 

Dustin Hoffman’s account of having sex for the first time as a teenager has resurfaced online, and people are pretty shocked by the whole thing.

For reference, the now-89-year-old actor shot to fame in the ‘60s following his starring role in The Graduate:

The two-time Oscar winner has a whole bunch of other notable movies under his belt, including Rain Man, Midnight Cowboy, Tootsie, Kramer vs. Kramer, and Hook.

In 2017, Dustin found himself in the headlines when seven women accused him of sexual misconduct or assault amid the #MeToo movement. Dustin only publicly responded to one of the allegations, which came from Anna Graham Hunter. At the time, she alleged that Dustin had made inappropriate jokes and comments around her, and asked her to give him foot massages when she was working as an intern on Death of a Salesman at age 17. Dustin was 47.

The star said in a statement: "I have the utmost respect for women and feel terrible that anything I might have done could have put her in an uncomfortable situation. I am sorry. It is not reflective of who I am."

In December of that same year, Dustin was left furious when comedian John Oliver unexpectedly questioned him over the allegations during a screening of Wag the Dog. Dustin started by saying that his apology had been misconstrued as an admission of guilt by the press, adding: “I still don’t know who this woman is. I never met her. If I met her, it was in concert with other people.”

But John called out Dustin’s response, saying: “It's 'not reflective of who I am' — it's that kind of response to this stuff that pisses me off. It is reflective of who you were. If you’ve given no evidence to show it didn’t [happen], there was a period of time for a while when you were a creeper around women. It feels like a cop-out to say: ‘Well, this isn’t me.’ Do you understand how that feels like a dismissal?”

Dustin urged John to “keep an open mind” about the allegations, and the actor was reported to become “visibly uncomfortable” and accused John of “putting [him] on display” as he hadn’t been told that the allegations would be brought up in advance. He told the host: “From a few things you’ve read, you’ve made an incredible assumption about me,” before sarcastically adding: “You’ve made the case better than anyone else can. I’m guilty.”

Amid the 2017 allegations, a 1979 interview that Dustin’s Kramer vs. Kramer co-star Meryl Streep gave to Time resurfaced online, with Meryl saying in the 28-year-old profile that Dustin had groped her during their first-ever meeting, when she auditioned for a play that he directed. She alleged: “He came up to me and said, 'I’m Dustin—burp—Hoffman,’ and he put his hand on my breast. 'What an obnoxious pig,' I thought."

However, Meryl’s rep insisted that the historic article was not “an accurate rendering of that meeting,” adding after it resurfaced: “There was an offense and it is something for which Dustin apologized. And Meryl accepted that.” Dustin’s rep responded by referring to this statement from Meryl’s team.

In a subsequent interview with the New York Times, Meryl recalled Dustin slapping her while they were filming Kramer vs. Kramer. Speaking in 2018, she shared: “This is tricky because when you’re an actor, you’re in a scene, you have to feel free. I’m sure that I have inadvertently hurt people in physical scenes. But there’s a certain amount of forgiveness in that. But this was my first movie, and it was my first take in my first movie, and he just slapped me. And you see it in the movie. It was overstepping. But I think those things are being corrected in this moment. And they’re not politically corrected; they’re fixed. They will be fixed, because people won’t accept it anymore. So that’s a good thing.”

Dustin continued to work steadily in the years since #MeToo, and he has now reentered social media consciousness after somebody stumbled upon a 22-year-old interview that he gave to Playboy in 2004.

Age 67 at the time, Dustin was asked: “How did you lose your virginity,” to which he detailed: “My parents went to Las Vegas one New Year's Eve weekend, and my brother Ronny threw a party. I loved that he let me be part of it—I was 15, and he's seven years older. I cooked steaks. It was one or two in the morning, and I saw a line of guys standing outside a bedroom door. They said, "Do you want to go next?" "What do you mean?" "Barbara's in there." I had met Barbara, a beautiful older woman, about 20. She was what in those days we called a nymphomaniac, which is not a word you hear anymore.”

“She was servicing these guys, one after the other. I had never been laid, and I couldn't believe my good fortune,” he went on. “I went in. It was dark, and she said, "Is that you, Ronny?" I said yes, lying for fear that she'd reject me. I wasn't old enough to drive a car, so I thought maybe I wasn't old enough to drive a woman. I remember whistling because I wanted to appear relaxed as I was taking off my clothes. It was wonderful. I came quickly and kept humping and humping. I thought, Is that all there is? I kept waiting for the next fireworks. The humping went on for about 20 minutes until somebody opened the door. It was just like a movie: A shaft of light was thrown from the hallway onto my face, and she screamed because I wasn't my brother.”

“Were you traumatized? Was she? Have you recovered?” interviewer David Sheff asked in response, and Dustin recalled: “She was shocked just because I wasn't my brother. I jumped off her, stark naked, and left the room. I was kind of shocked and dizzy. I wound up in the living room, and guys were sitting around having beer and talking, and I was naked. This may have been the beginning of my acting career without my knowing it, because they stood up and applauded, and I liked the applause. What was disturbing about it was that I couldn't get laid again for another two years.”

In addition to appearing in the December 2004 issue of Playboy, this interview can be found on the reporter’s personal website. The excerpt was shared on a pop culture Reddit forum earlier this week, where people were quick to share their thoughts. One of the top responses amid the hundreds of comments simply reads: “oh my fucking god what the fuck.”

“The dehumanizing language is so gross and normalizes the disrespect of women,” somebody else wrote. Another added: “I felt nauseous from beginning to end reading this. Absolutely horrific.” One more commented: "I’m so disgusted and disturbed."

BuzzFeed has contacted Dustin’s rep for comment.

If you or someone you know has experienced sexual assault, you can call the National Sexual Assault Hotline at 1-800-656-HOPE (4673), which routes the caller to their nearest sexual assault service provider. You can also search for your local center here.